For years, I had my life all planned out. I wanted to go on a mission after my first year of college, major in journalism, and live alone in New York City, writing for a big paper. I had step-by-step goals to reach my dream future. I had considered every possible issue and how to deal with them, except for one. I never anticipated God having a different plan for me.
One year at girl’s camp, I began to question my plans for the future. Specifically, whether or not I should serve a mission. I knew it wasn’t required of young women, but I also knew that I loved the gospel and wanted to share the joy it brought me with others. That year at girl’s camp, we sang a song that helped answer my questions. It was by Jenny Phillips and is called Live Like You Believe. The lyrics that really hit me said, “There are things you’ll have to let go, And you might feel, you’re just hanging on. When you find yourself alone and afraid, Questioning all the choices you’ve made, Hold on to the burning, He’s leading you on through the journey.” This helped me realize that there were plans I had for my future that I would have to “let go”. And even though that may feel like the end of the world, it’s not. Regardless of whether I served a mission at the time I planned to, I needed to hold on to the burning within me and be a missionary at home.
God has an eternal perspective that we can’t see. Our wants are circumstantial to our current state, but God sees what we will need to progress. Sometimes you have to give up your wants for what you need. When I discuss this with people, and they often argue that they know what they want better than anyone else. I agree, yes they know what they want, but they don’t necessarily know what they need.
When your plans are thrown off, and you feel like you’re losing control, remember Christ’s sacrifice for you. Christ didn’t suffer, and God did not allow his Son to suffer, so that you would fail in this life. They went through so much to guarantee that you could come to this earth at this time for a specific purpose. You cannot reach that purpose without his help. When I question His plan for me, I often go to my Personal Progress book and choose an experience from Divine Nature to do. These always help me find perspective.
Jeffrey R Holland said, “He [God] wants to bless us. A rewarding, abundant, and eternal life is the very object of His merciful plan for His children! It is a plan predicated on the truth “that all things work together for good to them that love God.”So keep loving. Keep trying. Keep trusting. Keep believing. Keep growing. Heaven is cheering you on today, tomorrow, and forever.” We don’t know what God has waiting for us, but we believe that it is what is best for our eternal progression.